Something I should have done a long time ago

Just kept it hanging over
Somewhere I never went but wanted to go
Out into the open

It was a long year & I wasted it

Now each breath's getting shorter
Get it over with, but I'm not convinced
It will rub my shoulders

Nothing I could have said, my mouth wouldn't move

The words entered my head
Frozen in place like a monument to silent death
Then I'd wake up from a dream of true love & filter it
A far away look like a suspect, nervous in a line up

Stuck in slow–motion until this is through

& it's kill or be killed
I'm facing up to it with nothing to lose
The decision made itself




Outside force, life ends;
If broken by inside force, life begins.